1) Because I actually liked the porn she gave me as a reward.
2) Because something can feel physically good and emotionally bad at the same time.
3) Because those boys were bigger and stronger than me.
4) Because they were all my friends, and their parents were my parents' friends.
5) Because even as a little kid, I knew that my parents were kind of out to lunch.
6) Because I didn't have the words or concepts to describe what was happening.